The twins are here!

Hello everyone!
I am so happy to finally be tying this update. The twins are here. They arrived on November 4, 2011 Friday. Samantha was born at 1256 at 6 lbs 13ozs 18 inches long. Samuel was born at 1257 at 6lbs 2 ozs 20 inches long.
I had a c-section and was awake. I was supposed to be put under due to my previous back surgery but the wonderful anesthesiologist was able to give me a spinal block.
I have to be honest the c-section scared me only because when my lower hald became completely numb I felt like I couldn't breath, so I had a little melt down. The whole staff did everything they could to help me relax. Which I finally did. They must have given me something to relax because during the procedure I just wanted to sleep and I was super hot.
Finally my hubby came in and I felt relief. When they began the procedure I felt nothing thank God, but I could smell the burning of skin which was odd. When they pulled Samantha out I let out a cry of "oh I can breathe again". It took a while for the doctor to get her out due to her being breech and tucked under the right side of my ribs. There was a lot of pushing and pulling that I felt. Very weird sensations.
Samantha didn't cry right away which made me nervous. She looked blue, but as soon as I heard her cry in the next room I was relieved. Samuel cried when he was pulled out and I cried too. It's so strange just to hear your own kiddo cry is like music to your ears.
We were in the hospital for three days. Samantha went home with us but Samuel stayed an extra day. Samuel was taken to the NICU the night they were born due to poor feeding and a low body temp. I was so drugged up that when one of the nurses came into our room to tell us about him I hardly remembered it the next day. But he was fine, the only thing we are dealing with now is maybe acid reflux. Whenever he eats he generally spits up a bit and formula comes out of his nose. Not fun! So we are going to see our doctor for him tomorrow to start treatment of whatever that may be.
Sleep is a far off dream now. I truly miss my lazy selfish days, but I couldn't imagine being without these wonderful little beings. I hate to be biased but they are beautiful and I am in love.
We go in for their second hep B shots next week and I am not looking forward to it. When they had their second heal prick I cried right along with them. I just hate them in pain. But I know it has to be done.
My c-section scar is slowly feeling better but the left side is giving me trouble. I go back in for another follow up next Friday for my doc and we are going to discuss birth control.
The first week home was so hard that I am so happy we are well passed it. I did pump for the first week just to give them the nutrients they needed. But I just couldn't get over the hump of pain that I was feeling. With no sleep, pain in my breasts and my c-section scar hurting I gave up the breast feeding. I still feel a little guilty about it but I feel so much better physically that I am ok with it.
We are up every 2-3 hours to feed the babies. Sometimes one doesn't want to go back to sleep and they want to be held. I try to wait and see if they just want to look around but then they start to fuss and so they fall asleep on me or my husband. Samuel is the one who wants to be held a lot but I think it has to do with his tummy troubles. Samantha does want to be cuddled too at times.
My husband took off a month to be with us and I am so sad that it is over now. He goes back to work on Monday and I will be alone for the first time. I am a a bit nervous but I know we will survive. We are still trying to figure out what each baby wants, and we are still trying to figure out how much they want to eat. Sometimes they will eat 2 ozs or 3ozs or 4ozs it is a struggle.
I have now quit my job officially and I am now a stay at home mama. CRAZY! I just cant believe that three years ago we were trying so hard to have just one baby and now look at us?!
Our house stays a mess and I am trying to get back to a normal routine. Hilarious I know but it helps me stay a bit sane. Any way I look forward to reading everyone's post about life with twins now that they are here. I have pics on my facebook, its under Katherine Estrada I have a shutterfly website, you have to join shutterfly but it's free. The website it The2Sams.shutterfly.com.
Love to all,
Katherine

The twins are here!!!

The twins were born 11-04-11 on Friday. Samantha was born at 12:56 at 18 inches long and 6 lbs 13 ozs, Samuel was born one minute later at 20 inches long 6lbs 2ozs. They are more then I could imagine and so beautiful. We are so overjoyed and of course overwhelmed.
I ended up having a spinal block for my c-section, it was a bit scary but I was so happy to be awake to see the babies with my husband. As you all know I am still adjusting to this new life so this is going to be short. There is a pic of our new loves below. Love to all.

35 weeks!

Hello my fellow

mommies,

I know its been a while but I am just so stinking tired. We are now 35 weeks along! Samuel is 5lbs 9oz as of two weeks ago and Samantha is 4 lbs 13 ozs. We go in this Thursday for another ultra-sound, so hopefully Samantha has caught up to her brother. I am so uncomfortable and my belly button hurts that I will be shocked if by the time we do the c-section these babies aren't at least 6lbs or more.

The c-section is November 4th at 1230 pm. I am pretty much nervous and ready at the same time. I told my hubby that we only have three weeks left of "just us". That makes me a bit sad. But we are both ready. We have been together ten years and we still have a life time ahead of us.

The nursery is ready, I am still working on a will which creeps me the hell out to be honest but I know we need one. And this week is the hunt for our pediatrician.

I am pretty much not sleeping at all. I think my bed is too soft because I literally want to cry when I turn over due to the heaviness of my ever expanding belly. And then I just have to get up after that pain to pee. UGH! Last night as I sat on my toilet sorry TMI I was bargaining with God and telling him how finished I am. Like he will take my pleas into consideration, fat chance. So tonight much to my dismay I am going to try and fall asleep on my couch.

Bedrest

Hello peeps,
So yesterday I was having a sharp pain on my left side near my ribs. I also was having some weird discharge. So I went to see my doctor. She thinks its Samuel who has no where else to go and he is pushing on my ribs. So that is that, and she did a pap smear and she checked my cervix which is highly uncomfortable btw. She said my cervix has thinned some. So I am on bedrest, or at least just rest. I am not on strict rest but no sex and no craziness. So here I am resting. It is so nice to be able to lie down whenever I want, which is a lot. LOL. Few more days and we are in the 28th week!!! Yeah!

Miserable

I am feeling highly conflicted right now. The reasoning being is that I am so uncomfortable and tired that I am miserable. Now I know this sounds ungrateful, I am finally pregnant life should be great. Well until you are actually pregnant and with twins I don’t think you should say a word. I am eating my own words now that I am these two things. I was always so envious of anyone pregnant before I got pregnant. This is life baby; pregnancy is not easy by any means.
I just feel bad that when my co-workers ask me how are you feeling I usually feel bad. So I am just going to lie and act like I am feeling fine. Maybe that will trick my body into being good? Just a thought. Well that’s that for today.
TTYL!

27 weeks!

Hello again bloggy world,
I am now 27 weeks this week. What a mile stone! I still can’t believe I will be hitting my third trimester next week. We are almost done cooking here!
Samuel and Samantha are doing well. They are each at least two pounds and around 14 inches long. They are growing at the same speed so that is good news.
We have lots of movement and lots of uncomfortablness. But I know it just comes with the territory.
I am back at work from being off for two months. And let me tell you it is no joke! My body is so resistant to everything I do its unreal. My back is tight, my tummy even tighter, and my allergies decided to act up. I guess they were jealous they weren’t getting attention. UGH!
Anyway I am getting big! It’s so neat to see my big belly every morning. It just reminds me that our 3 year journey was well worth it. If only I had known that then. LOL!
I do have some friends on my tummy now. I don’t really want to call them friends but they are hanging out with me every day so….stretch marks are here and here to stay! They are super red and long. Just on the front of my tummy. So I am using lotion like crazy to prevent anymore and to prevent them from doing any more damage.
The hubby and I go to the doctor September 8th and we have an ultra-sound September 6th. I will be around 30 weeks then. My doctor wants to put me on bed rest, so she wants to see how I am when we go see her.
I partly wouldn’t mind going on bed rest, just because I am so stinking tired. But then I would get paid disability and get paid very little. But oh well, it’s not my choice so time will tell. I hope everyone is doing well. TTYL!

Hey guys, sorry its been so long!

Hey ladies!

I am so sorry I havent been on here in forever. I wanted to update everyone on our pregnancy and I need some advice.

So we are going into our 6th month. That is a wonderful thing alone. We are having a boy and a girl. Samuel and Samantha. I know, the names are so similar. We tried so hard to choose a different name for the girl but we just love it too much. These two babies are super active,which is great.

BUT.....Samantha is on my right side and she is sideways I think and tucked under my ribs. Does anyone have adivice other then pushing her down to get her out from under there?

Samuel is a good boy, he kicks me and sometimes hurts me when he shifts but he steers clear from my ribs. Thank God!

My hubby and I have been going in regularly for appointments, and my doctor told me I could end up on bed rest. I get lots of tightening in my lower abdomen which makes it hard to walk, she said they are the ligaments. I have rested with water when I have too many. But now she is concerned they could be contractions and to watch it. If I have more then 6 in one hour and after rest and water they dont go away to call her. So I am keeping an eye on that.

I go back to work on the 16th, I am not super thrilled about it. Especially when all summer its been baby,baby stuff. Oh yeah we had our baby shower it was so great. I will attach some pics.


Thanks ladies, I am now going to see how everyone else is doing on here. Thanks for reading my looooong post. I also will attach my ultra sound pics when I get them tomorrow.

Lots of love!

Katherine

Appendix out and my baby shower

So it has been a very interesting couple of days. My hubby and I were celebrating our bdays at my moms with friends and family when he started feeling bad this past Saturday. He said his stomach hurt and that he just wanted to rest. So he did and later he came out for cake and presents. We went home and went to bed. But throughout the night he complained of pain on his right side. I knew that it must be his appendix. So the next morning, much to my prodding we went to the hospital where after and ultra-sound we saw it was indeed an inflammed appendix. Many hours later he went into surgery. Needless to say I was very nervous. 45 mins after he went in he was out and very drugged up. I felt so sorry for him. We went home 24 hours later and he is so much better. Just a bit sore but feeling good.
Now in a couple of days we are having my baby shower the baby shower is on my actual bday. Now tell me am I totally selfish if I want people to show up to my baby shower? What does that say about me? I guess it says that I hope I have been a nice enough friend and that people like me.....and of course gifts for twins is nice. Anyway I was looking at our baby registry and there are at least 10-15 items purchased and I just want to see if this means people are showing up. The other good thing is now my hubby is going to the baby shower. He was going to work that day, I didnt want him to be overwhelmed by women and baby stuff so we had decided he wouldnt come till later. But at least his being there will make me feel special.
Anywho the babies have names now.....Samual and Samantha. I know they are so similar and trust me we have tried to figure out other names, but we just love these names. So at least that is figured out. Lots of kicking lately and we are in our 23rd week. I am already uncomfortable, sore back and I go a bit more slowly these days.
I go back to work in three weeks, not excited about it. But it will give me something to do until babies are here and then I will never know what time is again.
I go into the doctor next week then two weeks later we do our glucose test. The hubby and I are going in for an ultra-sound on the 8th. Always excited to see the babies.
So until later TTYL!

22 weeks and Braxton Hicks and Gender!

We are now in the 22nd week. I have been having loads of Braxton Hicks contractions, so my doctor said I need to hydrate and rest. So I have. I go to the doctor tomorrow for a regular check up. Oh and we are having a boy and a girl!!!
Now we have to figure out names. Here are their pics. Baby A is on the left and this is the girl and baby B is on the right which is the boy.
Hope everyone one is doing well.
Also I have some jewelry for sale on Etsy. My shop is Katsjewelry2 check me out!

21 weeks and my jewelry name..

Hello again my peeps!!
We are 21 weeks this week with our little twinsie poos. And I am having soooo much kicking!!! The hubby felt them kick as well last night. I seemed to only be feeling a baby on the right side of my tummy but last night I began to feel a baby on the left side. I was super uncomfortable last night. I finally put a pillow under my belly, it helps some. It helps to have pillows all around. But who doesn’t like that anyway?
Okie! We go in tomorrow for our gender ultra-sound. We are super excited. Not so excited about it being at 2pm and in downtown Houston, but oh well.
BTW I am going to be uploading some jewelry that I make, I hope by the end of the week. Here is my Etsy name so you can search for me its KatsJewelry2. Please take a look to see if you like anything.
Love to you all!!

Who am I?

Who am I? This is a question that I have been asking myself since I graduated high school. Maybe even before then. In high school I was all about art and becoming an art teacher. I was naïve and ignorant in life but when I went to college it was so freeing. I felt like an adult and I was ready for anything.
Being 18 and a freshman in college felt like there were endless possibilities spread out before me. I trudged along and went to this college for two years. I struggled with math and I then began to feel jaded. I took a summer off and then decided to do a veterinary technician program. I loved it, it was amazing. I love animals and I loved learning about them. I went to work for a vet who truly crushed my dreams of this world. He was always cutting me down and reprimanding me in front of clients. He made fun of me for my dedication. He even told me I shouldn’t have taken time off for my wedding and honeymoon. I gave it a year and I quit. I attempted to work for a cat hospital and I hated it, one week later and I was jobless.
I was only 22 and I felt so lost. I hated that a job was defining who I was; I was still too young to realize that this was ok and I would eventually find where I needed to be. My husband was working in a jail and he really liked the law enforcement world. I was just lost. I was out of a job for three months. My sister got me an interview for an elementary school. I got the job, I started working in P.E. as an aide to the teachers and I have to be honest I again wasn’t in love. Five years later I was still not convinced of what I wanted to do.
I went back to school; it is all online which really works better for me. It’s also one class a month so it’s quicker. I graduate in December. So at least I will have accomplished my degree. So three years ago we decided to try for our baby. As we know this didn’t work out. But we are finally pregnant with twins and I am 20 weeks. It is a true blessing.
My husband and I were driving back from the beach on Thursday where I stupidly got myself so sunburnt that I can’t sleep now. We live in a small town not far from the country. I love the country and so does my hubby. We talked about our life 5 to 10 years from now. We live in a small two bedroom home now. And we both know that with two kids we won’t be able to have them share a room forever. Also we only have one bathroom. Anyway, we want to move before our kids go to kinder. We don’t like the schools around our area. So we dreamed of what it would be like to own a small farm. I can’t believe that I want that life! But what I find is that I fit there, I finally know where I fit. I am going to be a mom and one day living on a farm. We talked about having a red barn, property, animals, making goat’s cheese, milking our cows. I know maybe this sounds crazy to some but I honestly crave this life and we both hope that in ten years maybe we can have it.
I am going to be 28 at the end of the month and I am so looking forward to becoming a mom. Don’t get me wrong it is all new and a little scary but I think God finally led me to where I need to be. It is just odd how sometimes it takes many years to find out who you want to be. I am just trying to accept my new life and I want to be happy with it.

It's been a while....

Hey guys,
Sorry it's been a while but I have been lazy so I have been hiding. We are creeping up on the 20 week mark so we are half way there. I have been feeling flutters here and there. Lots of tightness in my lower tummy and loads of muscles being pulled. My boobs are super tender and I am such a cry baby as well.
Money is tight so that bums me out. We have decided I am going to stay home when the babies are born. My husband is trying to move up in his job so we are praying about that. But until then my mom is going to help us which I hate but I'm thankful for it. It won't last forever so there is always that.
At our last appointment many good things happened. My original doctor is no longer there so I have a new doctor which I love, my c-section is paid off, and we might be having a boy and a girl. The doctor did an ultra-sound, it was so hard to tell but she said it looks to be a boy and a girl. We go in for our actual gender ultra-sound on the 14th. So thats that I hope all is well in your world.
TTYL!

Hello again... 16 weeks!

Hey guys,
Not much to report. I went in for bloodwork this morning to finish the first tri-screenings. My weight hasn't gone up, which is good for me. I am not nearly as sick as I was last weekend. I was so bad that I was just vomiting acid. GROSS!!! And dry heaving. Needless to say I was a hot mess, and not proud it.
A fun thing is that I am showing! Woo hoo! I got a pair of maternity capris, it just feels strange having fabric on my belly. I am very aware of it so I sometimes pull it down to give my tummy breathing room.
No movement that I can tell. I have loads of tummy issues as is so I dont know if I would know anyway. I hope to feel them move eventually.
My mom bought the cribs for us, they are beautiful. We just got the second one in today. My hubby put it together but the room is so messy that one is against the wall where it should be and the other is in the middle of the room like an elephant. But I plan on fixing this issue this week.
I am off for the summer and I am doing my damndest to not go back to work in order to take care of our babies. So now I begin to try to find things to make me money as of now. Any ideas?! here are some pics below. TTYL!

This is the one in the store.

This is the messy room in progress.

14 weeks and images!

We have made it to the second trimester!!! We are 14 weeks this week. 15 weeks in a few days. How crazy is that? I still can’t believe we are pregnant and I am typing this.
We had a doctor’s appointment yesterday. The babies’ heartbeats are 143 and 154. My uterus is just below my belly bottom, and she said that was good for having twins. My weight is good and my blood pressure is normal. My thyroid is measuring a little low so she is going to re-test it in two weeks along with my last blood test for my first trimester screenings for neural tube or tubal defects? Not sure how to type it.
I took a pill the doctor prescribed for me for the nausea, this one doesn’t make me sleepy and it is helping some with the nausea so that is good.
Me and my mom and two best friends are going to go look at cribs tomorrow. I am excited!!! I am now wanting to buy stuff, and seeing that there are two babies I better start stocking up now.
TTYL! Love to all! 

These were two weeks ago.

This one is baby A

Baby B.

13 weeks and one day!

Hello world!!!
We are 13 weeks and one day. So that is a great thing. Starting last week my nausea began subsiding. THANK GOD!!! I feel human again, I really feel like I have crawled out from under a large heavy rock. I can now see the world!
I am able to eat food again. But certain things I am not crazy about. Ham is one of them. I have no clue why but it freaks me out. I usually love spicy food but it doesn’t love me.  I am not happy about that. And I realized today that popcorn makes me burp a lot! I am just learning all kinds of new and fun things about being pregnant.
That is still strange for me to type….I am pregnant. Crazy! I went on the 10th for my first trimester screenings. The ultra-sound was really neat. I hadn’t seen the babies since April and they were not looking like babies yet. They do now! They are really cute; they bounce around like they are little astronauts. The lady doing the ultra-sound took 45 mins, the little babies just didn’t want to be still. Their measurements are normal for no downs syndrome so that is a blessing.
I also did a nasty finger prick on my right ring finger, the nurse then squeezed my finger until I thought it would pop and drops of blood would fall onto a paper with little circles on it. So I think this was for the spina-bifida? Not sure if that is even the correct spelling. If anything is wrong the doctor said she would call us, no call as of yet. So all is well I hope.
The hubby and I go back in Next Thursday. Not sure what we do for this next appt. but at least we might get to see the babies again. I will attempt to attach our recent pics. Hope all is well for everyone and so sorry it took so long.

Not much to say.

Well not much on me other then I am still feeling sick. I went into the doctor’s office last week. One baby was wiggling its legs all over the place. The other one was sitting quietly. They both are happy and healthy it seems.
I am tired and low on energy. I am 11 weeks now. But I do have a complaint. Everyone wants me to my normal self. Well when I try to go out shopping or out to eat I end up sick. So I’d rather stay home and feel better. And then some friends are complaining I don’t call them well I don’t feel like talking. I do txt them. Oh well am I alone in this?

9 weeks and some Q and A.

Well it has been weeks since I have posted. To be honest I have not been doing much besides getting through the days and then going home to my couch.
I am sooooo tired. My nausea stopped last week, but I still notice if I get too full I feel very burpy and this feels like it could lead to vomiting. So I am taking Pepcid-AC and TUMS. They help for the most part.
Now the bathroom issues are annoying and I get an upset stomach all the time.
Good news, we went to our confirmation doctor’s appointment yesterday. We are pregnant….duh! The doctor we chose seems very nice and I like her. My husband is fine with her too. The nurses are nice. We did have to wait two hours just to get an ultra-sound.
When we spoke to our doctor she is concerned for me because I had a lower back spinal fusion four years ago and it will prevent me from getting an epidural or spinal block. So I might have to go under general anesthesia. I am a little worried but we have to do what we have to do.
I am able to be around food again, and I am going to try cooking for the first time in three weeks tonight. Wish me luck, so here I am going to try to answer these fun questions below. Oh and babies are doing well. They are both still there and their little heart beats are just a beating away. They are 2 cms. So tiny. So that is great. We are 9 weeks! Ok TTYL!



Maternity Clothes? Nope, I have lost 10-15 pounds since we found out I was preggos. My clothes are falling off.

Weight Gain? Nope not yet, weight lose.

Stretch Marks? Yes. But I have always had them.

Sleep? Well its getting annoying. For the first month I was falling asleep and sleeping great. But now that I have to pee 5 times a night by 2am I have a hard time falling back asleep. So I am sure its only getting worse. 

Best Moment of the Week? Seeing our babies again, and seeing their sweet little hearts beating.

Movement? Not yet.

Food Cravings? Nothing per say, I am just starting to eat real food again.

Gender? Not sure yet.

What I Miss? Drinking coke. I occasionally have a sweet tea, but I feel bad about the caffeine. I also miss sandwiches a lot!

Symptoms: Tired!!!! Nausea some, and potty issues.
What I'm looking forward to? No more nausea at all. Not feeling sleepy. And finding out what we are having.

Weekly Wisdom: Rest!!!

Milestones: Going in for our first official “I’m pregnant” appointment, and not seeing the fertility doctor.

Emotions: Everyday is different. Today I am tired and grumpy. I get some anxiety about having two babies. I am still waiting to see if I am going to be laid off for next year. I work in a school and layoffs are rampant. But other than that I just take it day by day and I pray.

Two heartbeats!

Hello guys!
The hubby and I went in for our second ultra-sound. All is well. There are two heartbeats and the two babies are growing at the right speed. Their hearbeats are loud and fast. So cool! I guess now we have to start planning and doing the nursery! Crazy. We have graduated from the Infertility Doctor and now we are going to our own doctor.
OK TTYL!

Sick, sick, and more sick

So I stayed home today from work. I have not been feeling well all weekend. I threw up last night and felt a bit better. But I constanly feel like I need to go the bathroom. And not to pee. So that is sucking badly. I keep burping then I feel like throwing up. So yeah I just stayed home and I am have been in my pjs all day.
I did do homework but all I can stomach is saltines and sprite. I tried chicken broth but that didnt go so well.
So anyway I wanted to get yalls thoughts to make sure I am not crazy. So since we found out we might be having twins I am feeling a little anxious and nervous. I am feeling scared to have twins. There are so many changes that are coming our way and I cant do anything about them so it makes me feel scared. Am I crazy? I know having these hormones in my body doesnt help either. But I just feel so anxious that there might be twins. I am happy please dont get me wrong, it took a while to get here. But I am just overwhelmed I guess. Please tell me other people feel or felt this.

Twins!

So you read it right, we are having twins!!! They are fraternal and the baby A is measuring at 6 weeks and two days today we could'nt find the heartbeat on that one yet. And baby B is measuring 6 weeks and 1 day today and after much prodding no thanks to my large ovaries we got to see and hear the heartbeat on that one. So we are very happy and I am just praying now that baby A has a heartbeat by next Thursday. We go back in at 3pm then. Please send some prayers our way that we get our two little angels. Soooooo excited!!!!
Love to all!

6 weeks on Tuesday

I will be 6 weeks on Tuesday and we are going in for our first ultra-sound at 3pm. I am excited and I hope all is well inside here. I feel pretty crappy today. Allergies are bad, head hurts, tummy is not happy. I dont like eating much, I crave salty and comfort food. I have lost a bit of weight which I need to loose anyway. The first trimester is going to be hard, I am tired and food is tricky. My emotions are always on the surface and work is hard. My co-worker is so bossy and I just want to be left alone. I have tried to do some organizing but I give up. I just feel pooped. Anyway I am off to watch Oprah. Ta Ta!

4 weeks and one day!

So since I am an IUI patient I had blood work twice this week. My first day was on Tuesday, HCG was 275. This is good. Then we went back into the doc's office today. My HCG is now at 577. Really good!!! I am very excited but I am also getting much more anxious than I thought I ever would. I go back in on the 29th for our 6 week ultra-sound. I just pray now that there is a normal little skittle there or two ;). My DH doesn't agree with me on wanting two skittles, but hey I will take whatever God wants to give us.

I have seven to eight months left of school and I will graduate. I did not do so well on this last class due to two IUI's back to back. So I might, just might scrap by, by the skin of my teeth with a D. But right now I don’t care; I just don’t want to fail. If I fail I have to pay $1000 bucks back which with a baby on the way we cannot afford to pay that, and that puts me at graduating not in November but in December. The skittle or skittles are due around the end of November. So I need to already be done with school. I am not sticking to the actual date which is November 28th. I know they can come early or late.

Anyway I am just praying to God for peace and lots of it. I just feel so anxious with the fact that there is no more fiddle farting around. I actually have to start thinking about names, and re-doing the future nursery. I am also thinking about insurance, cost of the hospital, and cost of just raising a baby. But my husband Jesus, yes his name is Jesus but he is Hispanic so you say it hey sus lol. He says "How do you eat an elephant?" I of course say "How?" He says "One bite at a time." Why in the heck do guys have to say things like that?! Just like it’s no big thang, things are so easy peasy. HA!

Ok I need to calm myself down. I feel sick I ran a fever last night. The highest it went was 100.1 which scared the crapola out of me. So we got Tylenol, I double checked to make sure I was allowed to have it. I took a cold shower, tears and all, than I saw that my temp was still going up and so I put ice packs under my arms and in my groin. Not comfortable when all you want to do is pee. But the Tylenol kicked in and the ice helped. I spoke to one of the nurses at my doc's office and she said as long as your fever stays below 100.5 we are ok. So I went to my regular doc after the blood work today and I was prescribed antibiotics, the safe kind (class b), I have a cold I guess and a UTI. Just lovely isn’t it? I still cannot eat what I want and I suspect things will only get worse. But hey maybe I will lose weight this way? Also I bought these Preggie Pops, they are supposed to help with morning sickness, the Ginger and Lavender ones are so good and they really ease my tummy. But there is a sour raspberry one that nearly made me throw up.They don't help for long but they do. I also bought some tea no caffeine which is helpful too. I got these two things from Babys-r-us. Which is another odd revalation for me, I get to shop at Babys-r-us now!!! That makes me happy. We are finally apart of the baby club! YES!

But it is all worth it for this much prayed for blessed pregnancy that I thought would never be. It’s so odd I wake up every morning and I remember “Hey I’m pregnant”, I am finally pregnant. Will this ever not be so surprising?! I don’t think so. So I was a good little student and I did my homework I still have two more things to do and I am trying to convince myself to do it now, because I know on Monday I will be super tired. I work in a school and we are off for Spring Break so I know going back to work, newly pregnant is going to kick my rump. So anyway I hope all is well for my friends here in cyber world. I am as always praying for each one of you in your journeys. TTYL!

The day has finally come!!!!

Yep you guessed it, or maybe you didn't. So here it is....we are preggos!!! I took two clear blue easy pregnancys tests on Monday and they were both positive. I was so shocked that for a split second I didn't believe that the tests were from me. I know odd thoughts I know. I am still in shock and my DH is as well. I just never thought I would see a positive test.
I went into the doctor's office today for blood work. The nurse said "you are indeed pregnant" I was excited all over again. She said "your HCG levels look good at 275." I said "good now what is next?" She said "you come in on Thursday for more bloodwork, we want your levels to rise 66% and if they do we are doing well." Then in two weeks I go in for an ultra-sound. I am thrilled, I am just praying this little skittle or skittles stick. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers girls. I will keep ya'll updated.

2nd IUI done today

Hello peeps,
Just an update on today. We went in for my second IUI and it was much different than the first one. It was of course uncomfortable when she put the speculum in but that is always uncomfortable. But when she put the catheter in it was way different. I did ask her if she knew my cervix was turned and she looked at my chart and said yes it is turned to the left. So I felt pretty nervous and I wasn’t feeling that good that early in the morning so I just believed that the nurse was going to get it right the first time and quickly. And she did! So when she put the catheter in she said ok you are going to feel a cramp. And boy did I. It took me by surprise, it was a huge cramp. The nurse said it is similar to a labor pain. I thought holly molly. So needless to say this did not happen with my first IUI. So this leads me to believe that they didn’t get the catheter in....not sure but I would have remembered a cramp like that last time. All I had was burning. And the only reason you cramp is because your uterus is saying what the heck is that thing (catheter) get it out. So we have to have intercourse today and tomorrow. I am a bit sore so that wasn’t too fun, but I am doing what the nurse says. I have to take it easy for the next two weeks.
The nurse also said so when you get a positive pregnancy test call me and we will do blood work and go from there. I laughed and said I hope we have a positive pregnancy test.
As we walked out I was looking at the huge to floor to ceiling frames they have in the office with baby pictures and I just love seeing the twins and triplets. I actually let myself accept the fact that I am allowed and deserve to have babies too.
Anyway my husband was off today and he and his brother planted flowers and put down mulch in our side beds and front bed, it looks so spring like. It made me so hopeful and happy.
Here comes the 2 WW.
Love yall! TTYL. :)

Doctor appt.

Well hello all!
Today I went in for my ultra-sound and blood work. I got quite a scare while having my ultra-sound. The x-ray tech showed me four follicles on the right side one was 16.4, 15, 11, and 13. On the left side was another 16.4, and a few other small ones. And my uterine lining was "beautiful" it had some type of double lining she was showing me. So I thought ok things look good. Seeing that with my first IUI we only had one follicle that was 16.4. But then she said "well you have a lot so depending on your blood work will determine what they will do". Meaning cancel my IUI or convert me to IVF; which we cannot afford. So needless to say I was thrilled to have so many viable follicles but then scared to have them cancel because of so many.
Fast forward to this afternoon, I am super busy, I work in an elementary school clinic, I am red in the face and I have a headache that won’t quit. My nurse calls and said "well from your blood work....pause....everything looks good" "We are going to have you trigger tonight at 9pm, and have you come in on Wednesday morning." I of course had nothing to say but thank you’s and I was going to cry if you told me we were cancelling. She laughed and said "well you do have a lot going on down there, but we want to trigger you now so the other follicles don’t catch up." So thank you God we are going in for another try.
So the hubby and I have agreed if this IUI doesn’t work we are taking a month off and we will try again in April. So let’s just pray we get at least one baby out of this. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers! TTYL!

AF showed

So AF decided to make her debut on Monday morning bright and early at 5 am. I was on day 12 post IUI. I didn’t even get to two weeks. Needless to say I was devastated and still am. I cried the ugly cry all day, well for the most of the day yesterday. I had to work so I had to turn it off sometimes. Thank God I have such a wonderful boss and co-workers that have been so supportive throughout all of this.
So on to the next cycle. Here we go numero dos! Yeah I wish I felt that happy about it. When I went into the doctor's office today for my ultra sound and blood work I became so bitter. And that made me really sad, almost two weeks ago I was here and I was soooo happy and hopeful. That is all gone now. I am trying to muster up my happy again but it is far away. So I am just trying to go through the motions and stay distracted. I now wait for the nurse to call me tomorrow with our dosage of injections and we begin again. Adios for now.

9 and 10 days post IUI

Yesterday and today I am nauseated. It started yesterday morning when I got up and then still today. I am not getting too excited or leaning too much towards possibly being pregnant. I work in a clinic in an elementary school so I get exposed to everything. I am on day 10 post IUI. I am not drinking caffeine right now because I am trying to give myself every chance of pregnancy. Kayee I now understand why you never felt like getting onto your blog when you were newly pregnant. I am by no means for sure of anything but as of right now I feel tired and nauseated.
This is the strangest place I have ever been in my life. As I sit here my sense of smell is super strong. I honestly hate to have symptoms in a way because then you want to jump to conclusions. So today I am doing what makes me happy. I am trying to stay peaceful and just relaxed. Anyway I don’t have much more to say other then ttyl!

8 days post IUI

Today I seriously wanted to rip my head off and others around me. I seriouly had no reason to be this way but I just felt so annoyed by everything and everyone. I had to go into the bathroom and pray to God to help me, I was that frustrated.
My boobies are still sore, but maybe not as much as a few days ago. No more cramping or bloating. Odd dreams and very hormonal. Next week is when I get to take a HPT. I am trying to not think about it. LOL yeah....

7 days post IUI

As I walked my dogs yesterday I began praying to God for a sign. I asked God if he could tell me if I was pregnant or not. I am now 7 days post IUI and yesterday I thought I would take a pregnancy test….stupid I know. And of course it was negative which planted another seed of doubt. UGH!!!
Last night I dreamt that I was stuffing two Dalmatian puppies into another Dalmatian toy, my family loves Dalmatians and we have three in our family. So I don’t know if that was a sign from God, a mommy Dalmatian with two baby Dalmatians in her tummy? Another UGH! I just want to know if this worked or not. I told myself I would not become obsessive; I would not look at every single forum out there and see what happened to other women who have gone through IUI. I know this already, I am not them I may not have the same things they did. So here I am obsessing…..

6 days post IUI

So today was not the best of days. I am highly emotional and negative today. More cramping and sore boobies. But I am not feeling all that hopeful. But then I go back to feeling like maybe I am pregnant. I'm trying to keep my mind busy but it's hard. I am watching Jennifer Hudson right now on Oprah and she looks sooo good. She said she is a size 6 and lost 80 pounds. I know I need to loose that much too. I have done weight watchers and I think I could do it again. If I am pregnant I dont want to gain more weight. Anyway bye for now.

five days post IUI.

It has been five days since my IUI. I have had some twinging feelings in my abdomen and my nipples are twinging as well. My boobs starting getting very sore around the last days of my shots so I know that it doesn't necessarly mean my period is coming like it did before. My boobs feel heavy and so sore. That is hopeful. I cant take a pregnancy test until around the 24th. It seems like its so far away. Im super duper tired from a long busy day and I am off to do mindless tasks. TTYL!

4 days post IUI

We are four days post IUI and today I have had some slight cramping; mostly on the left side but sometimes on the bottom right side. Who knows, it is probably nothing and I am reading too much into it but I am trying to listen to the nurse. She said that today would be considered day 3 and that means if there is an egg these would be the next three days that they or it could implant. So I have been careful and been asking the hubby to lift things for me and I have been as calm as I can be. So that is it, not much for today. TTYL!

One day post IUI

Good afternoon blogger family! I went to bed with some cramping and discomfort but today is getting better. I still have some pain on the left side of my abdomen but I am ok. Allergies as always are bad and I am listening to the “what you can take while you are pregnant list” and staying away from any meds I am not sure of. So all I can take for a sore throat are Halls. And I hate cough drops. But I will do whatever I need to do to help this eggy implant and stay put.
I also have been trying to accept the fact that this may not happen and that we will have to do more cycles. I am ok with that. But of course I am hoping for the best. I have this wonderful book my best friend gave me for Valentines it is called Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. It is a book full of wonderful daily devotions for everyday of the year. I love it so much and here is why. Every time I open it up I feel that God is speaking to me through his words. It’s so encouraging. Here is one that is very inspiring:
“I am able to do far beyond all that you ask or imagine. Come to Me with positive expectations, knowing that there is no limit to what I can accomplish. Ask My spirit to control your mind, so that you can think great thoughts of Me. Do not be discouraged by the fact that many of your prayers are yet unanswered. Time is a trainer, teaching you to wait upon Me, to trust Me in the dark. The more extreme your circumstances, the more likely you are to see My Power and Glory at work in the situation. Instead of letting difficulties draw you into worrying, try to review them as setting the scene for My glorious intervention. Keep your eyes and your mind wide open to all that I am doing in your life.” Ephesians 3:20-21; Romans 8:6, Isaiah 40:30-31; Revelation 5:13


Those combined scriptures are just what I have needed. My sister and I have been totally mis-communicating lately. And it is so hurtful because I really want her to be supportive for me. She didn’t even call me yesterday after the IUI. She just responded to my text message. Only saying “Could that have been the problem all along?” This was referring to my backwards cervix/uterus. I said well maybe but they cannot confirm that. She just responded “Ok”. So it’s hurtful and I need my only sister to be there for me and act like she cares. We are honestly night and day but I still need her. But she is not that type of person and she is into her own husband and two daughters. Seriously she won’t even come out to my house or my moms because she is always too busy with “her family”. So anyway I am praying for strength and trying to be positive.

IUI done

So the IUI is done and we are back home. Apparently my cervix is turned backwards towards my spine and pointing towards my left side. So after four different speculums,two nurses, and two different catheters they got it in. The hubby had over 84 million little soldiers which was great. I take a pregnancy test in two weeks unless aunt flo just shows. Fingers crossed and praying. :)

Weird day

This morning I was not feeling good at all. I dont know if it was because of the trigger shot-Ovirdrel I took last night or what. But I was bloated, tired and my head hurt. Too many hormones! We are having cold weather down here in Houston and they are expecting another freeze. This is not helpful when I need to get onto the freeway tomorrow to get to the doc at 9 am. I am feeling ok right now, I am sooooo anxious and nervous and ready. I just want this to be it and no more shots and no more IUIs. Please shoot us some prayers that all goes well and we get to our appt on time and we get knocked up! :)

Trigger tonight

I am triggering tonight and I have to wait for my husband to get home to do it. We are supposed to trigger at 10pm. But I am so tired! Well that is all I dont have much to say other than I am trying to lay low and be stress free. Updates as they come!

IUI Thursday

So the IUI is due to happen Thursday at 10 am. My hubby has to be there at 9 so we will just go in together and then go eat. I do one more injection tonight of Gonal-f and then trigger tomorrow at 10pm. I am feeling a little annoyed, my sister is not being very supportive and my husband reminded me that he might get called into work due to a possible freeze Wednesday night. He is a police officer and has to go into work on his day off to help close down the freeways because of ice (if it freezes). I told him I understood that his job is his job, but that I am not cancelling this cycle. So please say a prayer for us that all goes well and this baby sticks! Love ya'll!

Trigger?

Feeling happy and down. I went in this morning for blood work and an ultrasound. My follicles looked good. One on the right is 16.4mm and ready. There was one below that one that was 9.4 and one on the left which was 9.2. Not big enough. So the nurse said we are going with the big one. So I immediately got scared that with just one egg there was not a great chance of getting preggos. So I am trying my hardest to not think like that and be happy that I even have one. DUH! I can be so silly sometimes. So I got my trigger shot and I am still awaiting the call from the nurse with my blood work results. I am praying we trigger tonight and then we go in on Wednesday for the IUI. Fingers crossed!!!

Blood work today

Today is our fourth day on shots. I went to the doctor today and I think they said my estrogen was up to 176 or something around there. Basically she said I was doing what I was supposed to be doing and everything was looking great. I do shots for two more days and I go back in on Monday morning. More updates then.

Last day of shots, for the week.

Tonight was the last night of my shots at least for this week. Tomorrow we go in for my ultrsound to see what size my follicles are and for bloodwork. I am a little worried because I havent gotten the rest of my medicine. I still have plenty of meds left but I need to check with the people who are supposed to ship my other meds. Hopefully by next week I will get the rest, because I need the trigger shot. I hoping for good news tomorrow. Updates tomorrow.

My two shots

Last night was my first shot. My hubby did it for me and I didnt feel it which was good. Ice is a great thing. Last night I got a terrible sore throat and today ended with a fever and more meds from the doctor. The nurse said I am still ok to do my shots so that is good. My second shot hurt more so then yesterday, but only a pinch. School is closed tomorrow which is good so I can rest and not have to lose pay. It is supposed to snow tomorrow, which is so cool for us Texans. It is also my hubby and I's 5 year anniversary. So hopefully I will feel good enough to go out. I am out of sick days so thank good ness for weather makeup days. Anyway Im praying for a good result on Saturday. Keep ya posted!

First shot tonight

Im so excited and scared. Tonight is my first time to give myself a shot, or I might let my husband do it. I dont know! All I know is I am going to numb my skin with ice first. It is such a tiny needle but the thing that freaks me out is the clicking the pen makes. You have to really pushed down hard with your thumb. I just dont want to mess up. I let my boss know that I might be needing the day off sometime next week for the IUI. I love her so much, she is so understanding. I have just been asking for peoples prayers. So excited!

The amount

I talked to the nurse and I will be injecting 75 ml? I think so. But I of course have so many questions now. Anyone who has done IUI can you fill me in? I am starting injecting tomorrow. Yes!

More on today...

More on today, so I went into my appointment at one instead of 3:30. I got my ultrasound and there are 9 follicles on the right side and 7 on the left. No cysts so I can go ahead and start my shots tomorrow evening. I will be taking Gonal-f and then back in for another ultrasound to measure my follicles. I am waiting on my nurse to call me back with the amount I will be injecting and I forgot some things so I am going to ask those things. I am so excited and I am praying. I will be buying prenatal vitamins and I am starting to eat like I’m pregnant. I want to be as healthy as possible. Yeah!!!

2nd day

The nurse called me back yesterday and told me that if I didn’t go in to re-do my communicable dieses blood work I would have to do Clomid this month. I want to do the shots so the hubby and I rushed over after work and did that. Today I go in at 3:30 for an ultrasound and they are going to teach me how to give myself shots. I am a little worried about what I will be paying for the shots, but I am determined this time to do this. We just paid off a credit card and I will use that if need be. I don’t want to turn back now. I am still getting over a sinus infection and feeling a little rough but I am so excited. Updates later.

Day one

Today is day one of AF. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. As dramatic as that may sound that is how I feel. This morning when I saw that AF showed I was apprehensive. I must admit I am a little scared of this new prospect of parent hood. Don’t get me wrong I want a baby, I want to be pregnant, and I want to start our new chapter in life. But I just feel excited and scared. I called and left a message for the day one nurse and I am still waiting for her to call me back to make my appointment for my new blood work. I almost didn’t call and waited until I felt more ready, but there is no better time like the present. I will keep ya’ll posted!

So excited!

Exciting news today! I just so happened to call my insurance at the urging of a friend to check on infertility insurance. I was told back in October that they did not offer any type of infertility insurance anymore. So I was devastated and confused as to what to do. So I have been doing nothing. Well I was attempting to apply for grants that I have found and hoping we would get lucky. The grants are for IVF only. Anyway my insurance now offers diagnosing, treatment, 6 separate IUI attempts, and ovulation induction. WHAT?!!! I called twice to make sure. I am so thrilled right now. So looks like we are going back in for new tests to re-check our levels. We have not been since last March. YEAH!!!

Another side note.

Also I was telling my sister that if and when we have our baby that I was thinking about staying home until they go to school. She said thats a bad idea, that means your husband would have to work a lot more. And why was I getting a degree then? I said I am getting a degree so that I can go to work when my kids are in school. That was annoying to hear from my sister. But like I told her I have no idea what I will want to do when we have a baby. I just dont want to miss anything, especially after how long this has been taking....Oh well.

Well duh!

My sister asked me today if my husband and I were still talking about babies. I said well not really but it never leaves my mind. I am being as patient as I possibly can be. But I want a baby! I want to be pregnant and have a healthy baby. I know some people say to enjoy your life without babies. They say how it is so much easier without babies. But I can’t make myself not want a baby. So I am keeping myself as busy as I can. I continue to write my book and short stories but I always come back to my reality of wanting to be a mom. It never goes away. No matter how busy I am, the desire still burns and I think until I hold our baby it always will.

Funny day

Funny thing happened today. A friend of mine that I work with just had a miscarriage; well that’s not the funny part. She and her husband have one egg left and they want to use this plus some eggs from a donor. So they went to look at prospects and they didn’t feel that great about any of them. So her husband asked if she had any friends that she would consider. And you guessed it, she said they thought about asking me but she didn’t want it to be weird with us being friends. And I said well seeing that I can’t even get pregnant on my own might rule me out. She said oh yeah that’s right. WTF?!!! She obviously thinks she is the only one on this earth who is trying to get pregnant. Like I said I have been trying a lot longer then she has. Anyway odd, odd ,odd…..