Monday, February 28, 2011

Doctor appt.

Well hello all!
Today I went in for my ultra-sound and blood work. I got quite a scare while having my ultra-sound. The x-ray tech showed me four follicles on the right side one was 16.4, 15, 11, and 13. On the left side was another 16.4, and a few other small ones. And my uterine lining was "beautiful" it had some type of double lining she was showing me. So I thought ok things look good. Seeing that with my first IUI we only had one follicle that was 16.4. But then she said "well you have a lot so depending on your blood work will determine what they will do". Meaning cancel my IUI or convert me to IVF; which we cannot afford. So needless to say I was thrilled to have so many viable follicles but then scared to have them cancel because of so many.
Fast forward to this afternoon, I am super busy, I work in an elementary school clinic, I am red in the face and I have a headache that won’t quit. My nurse calls and said "well from your blood work....pause....everything looks good" "We are going to have you trigger tonight at 9pm, and have you come in on Wednesday morning." I of course had nothing to say but thank you’s and I was going to cry if you told me we were cancelling. She laughed and said "well you do have a lot going on down there, but we want to trigger you now so the other follicles don’t catch up." So thank you God we are going in for another try.
So the hubby and I have agreed if this IUI doesn’t work we are taking a month off and we will try again in April. So let’s just pray we get at least one baby out of this. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers! TTYL!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

AF showed

So AF decided to make her debut on Monday morning bright and early at 5 am. I was on day 12 post IUI. I didn’t even get to two weeks. Needless to say I was devastated and still am. I cried the ugly cry all day, well for the most of the day yesterday. I had to work so I had to turn it off sometimes. Thank God I have such a wonderful boss and co-workers that have been so supportive throughout all of this.
So on to the next cycle. Here we go numero dos! Yeah I wish I felt that happy about it. When I went into the doctor's office today for my ultra sound and blood work I became so bitter. And that made me really sad, almost two weeks ago I was here and I was soooo happy and hopeful. That is all gone now. I am trying to muster up my happy again but it is far away. So I am just trying to go through the motions and stay distracted. I now wait for the nurse to call me tomorrow with our dosage of injections and we begin again. Adios for now.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

9 and 10 days post IUI

Yesterday and today I am nauseated. It started yesterday morning when I got up and then still today. I am not getting too excited or leaning too much towards possibly being pregnant. I work in a clinic in an elementary school so I get exposed to everything. I am on day 10 post IUI. I am not drinking caffeine right now because I am trying to give myself every chance of pregnancy. Kayee I now understand why you never felt like getting onto your blog when you were newly pregnant. I am by no means for sure of anything but as of right now I feel tired and nauseated.
This is the strangest place I have ever been in my life. As I sit here my sense of smell is super strong. I honestly hate to have symptoms in a way because then you want to jump to conclusions. So today I am doing what makes me happy. I am trying to stay peaceful and just relaxed. Anyway I don’t have much more to say other then ttyl!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

8 days post IUI

Today I seriously wanted to rip my head off and others around me. I seriouly had no reason to be this way but I just felt so annoyed by everything and everyone. I had to go into the bathroom and pray to God to help me, I was that frustrated.
My boobies are still sore, but maybe not as much as a few days ago. No more cramping or bloating. Odd dreams and very hormonal. Next week is when I get to take a HPT. I am trying to not think about it. LOL yeah....

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

7 days post IUI

As I walked my dogs yesterday I began praying to God for a sign. I asked God if he could tell me if I was pregnant or not. I am now 7 days post IUI and yesterday I thought I would take a pregnancy test….stupid I know. And of course it was negative which planted another seed of doubt. UGH!!!
Last night I dreamt that I was stuffing two Dalmatian puppies into another Dalmatian toy, my family loves Dalmatians and we have three in our family. So I don’t know if that was a sign from God, a mommy Dalmatian with two baby Dalmatians in her tummy? Another UGH! I just want to know if this worked or not. I told myself I would not become obsessive; I would not look at every single forum out there and see what happened to other women who have gone through IUI. I know this already, I am not them I may not have the same things they did. So here I am obsessing…..

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

6 days post IUI

So today was not the best of days. I am highly emotional and negative today. More cramping and sore boobies. But I am not feeling all that hopeful. But then I go back to feeling like maybe I am pregnant. I'm trying to keep my mind busy but it's hard. I am watching Jennifer Hudson right now on Oprah and she looks sooo good. She said she is a size 6 and lost 80 pounds. I know I need to loose that much too. I have done weight watchers and I think I could do it again. If I am pregnant I dont want to gain more weight. Anyway bye for now.

Monday, February 14, 2011

five days post IUI.

It has been five days since my IUI. I have had some twinging feelings in my abdomen and my nipples are twinging as well. My boobs starting getting very sore around the last days of my shots so I know that it doesn't necessarly mean my period is coming like it did before. My boobs feel heavy and so sore. That is hopeful. I cant take a pregnancy test until around the 24th. It seems like its so far away. Im super duper tired from a long busy day and I am off to do mindless tasks. TTYL!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

4 days post IUI

We are four days post IUI and today I have had some slight cramping; mostly on the left side but sometimes on the bottom right side. Who knows, it is probably nothing and I am reading too much into it but I am trying to listen to the nurse. She said that today would be considered day 3 and that means if there is an egg these would be the next three days that they or it could implant. So I have been careful and been asking the hubby to lift things for me and I have been as calm as I can be. So that is it, not much for today. TTYL!

Friday, February 11, 2011

One day post IUI

Good afternoon blogger family! I went to bed with some cramping and discomfort but today is getting better. I still have some pain on the left side of my abdomen but I am ok. Allergies as always are bad and I am listening to the “what you can take while you are pregnant list” and staying away from any meds I am not sure of. So all I can take for a sore throat are Halls. And I hate cough drops. But I will do whatever I need to do to help this eggy implant and stay put.
I also have been trying to accept the fact that this may not happen and that we will have to do more cycles. I am ok with that. But of course I am hoping for the best. I have this wonderful book my best friend gave me for Valentines it is called Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. It is a book full of wonderful daily devotions for everyday of the year. I love it so much and here is why. Every time I open it up I feel that God is speaking to me through his words. It’s so encouraging. Here is one that is very inspiring:
“I am able to do far beyond all that you ask or imagine. Come to Me with positive expectations, knowing that there is no limit to what I can accomplish. Ask My spirit to control your mind, so that you can think great thoughts of Me. Do not be discouraged by the fact that many of your prayers are yet unanswered. Time is a trainer, teaching you to wait upon Me, to trust Me in the dark. The more extreme your circumstances, the more likely you are to see My Power and Glory at work in the situation. Instead of letting difficulties draw you into worrying, try to review them as setting the scene for My glorious intervention. Keep your eyes and your mind wide open to all that I am doing in your life.” Ephesians 3:20-21; Romans 8:6, Isaiah 40:30-31; Revelation 5:13

Those combined scriptures are just what I have needed. My sister and I have been totally mis-communicating lately. And it is so hurtful because I really want her to be supportive for me. She didn’t even call me yesterday after the IUI. She just responded to my text message. Only saying “Could that have been the problem all along?” This was referring to my backwards cervix/uterus. I said well maybe but they cannot confirm that. She just responded “Ok”. So it’s hurtful and I need my only sister to be there for me and act like she cares. We are honestly night and day but I still need her. But she is not that type of person and she is into her own husband and two daughters. Seriously she won’t even come out to my house or my moms because she is always too busy with “her family”. So anyway I am praying for strength and trying to be positive.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

IUI done

So the IUI is done and we are back home. Apparently my cervix is turned backwards towards my spine and pointing towards my left side. So after four different speculums,two nurses, and two different catheters they got it in. The hubby had over 84 million little soldiers which was great. I take a pregnancy test in two weeks unless aunt flo just shows. Fingers crossed and praying. :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Weird day

This morning I was not feeling good at all. I dont know if it was because of the trigger shot-Ovirdrel I took last night or what. But I was bloated, tired and my head hurt. Too many hormones! We are having cold weather down here in Houston and they are expecting another freeze. This is not helpful when I need to get onto the freeway tomorrow to get to the doc at 9 am. I am feeling ok right now, I am sooooo anxious and nervous and ready. I just want this to be it and no more shots and no more IUIs. Please shoot us some prayers that all goes well and we get to our appt on time and we get knocked up! :)

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Trigger tonight

I am triggering tonight and I have to wait for my husband to get home to do it. We are supposed to trigger at 10pm. But I am so tired! Well that is all I dont have much to say other than I am trying to lay low and be stress free. Updates as they come!

Monday, February 7, 2011

IUI Thursday

So the IUI is due to happen Thursday at 10 am. My hubby has to be there at 9 so we will just go in together and then go eat. I do one more injection tonight of Gonal-f and then trigger tomorrow at 10pm. I am feeling a little annoyed, my sister is not being very supportive and my husband reminded me that he might get called into work due to a possible freeze Wednesday night. He is a police officer and has to go into work on his day off to help close down the freeways because of ice (if it freezes). I told him I understood that his job is his job, but that I am not cancelling this cycle. So please say a prayer for us that all goes well and this baby sticks! Love ya'll!


Feeling happy and down. I went in this morning for blood work and an ultrasound. My follicles looked good. One on the right is 16.4mm and ready. There was one below that one that was 9.4 and one on the left which was 9.2. Not big enough. So the nurse said we are going with the big one. So I immediately got scared that with just one egg there was not a great chance of getting preggos. So I am trying my hardest to not think like that and be happy that I even have one. DUH! I can be so silly sometimes. So I got my trigger shot and I am still awaiting the call from the nurse with my blood work results. I am praying we trigger tonight and then we go in on Wednesday for the IUI. Fingers crossed!!!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Blood work today

Today is our fourth day on shots. I went to the doctor today and I think they said my estrogen was up to 176 or something around there. Basically she said I was doing what I was supposed to be doing and everything was looking great. I do shots for two more days and I go back in on Monday morning. More updates then.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Last day of shots, for the week.

Tonight was the last night of my shots at least for this week. Tomorrow we go in for my ultrsound to see what size my follicles are and for bloodwork. I am a little worried because I havent gotten the rest of my medicine. I still have plenty of meds left but I need to check with the people who are supposed to ship my other meds. Hopefully by next week I will get the rest, because I need the trigger shot. I hoping for good news tomorrow. Updates tomorrow.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

My two shots

Last night was my first shot. My hubby did it for me and I didnt feel it which was good. Ice is a great thing. Last night I got a terrible sore throat and today ended with a fever and more meds from the doctor. The nurse said I am still ok to do my shots so that is good. My second shot hurt more so then yesterday, but only a pinch. School is closed tomorrow which is good so I can rest and not have to lose pay. It is supposed to snow tomorrow, which is so cool for us Texans. It is also my hubby and I's 5 year anniversary. So hopefully I will feel good enough to go out. I am out of sick days so thank good ness for weather makeup days. Anyway Im praying for a good result on Saturday. Keep ya posted!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

First shot tonight

Im so excited and scared. Tonight is my first time to give myself a shot, or I might let my husband do it. I dont know! All I know is I am going to numb my skin with ice first. It is such a tiny needle but the thing that freaks me out is the clicking the pen makes. You have to really pushed down hard with your thumb. I just dont want to mess up. I let my boss know that I might be needing the day off sometime next week for the IUI. I love her so much, she is so understanding. I have just been asking for peoples prayers. So excited!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The amount

I talked to the nurse and I will be injecting 75 ml? I think so. But I of course have so many questions now. Anyone who has done IUI can you fill me in? I am starting injecting tomorrow. Yes!

More on today...

More on today, so I went into my appointment at one instead of 3:30. I got my ultrasound and there are 9 follicles on the right side and 7 on the left. No cysts so I can go ahead and start my shots tomorrow evening. I will be taking Gonal-f and then back in for another ultrasound to measure my follicles. I am waiting on my nurse to call me back with the amount I will be injecting and I forgot some things so I am going to ask those things. I am so excited and I am praying. I will be buying prenatal vitamins and I am starting to eat like I’m pregnant. I want to be as healthy as possible. Yeah!!!

2nd day

The nurse called me back yesterday and told me that if I didn’t go in to re-do my communicable dieses blood work I would have to do Clomid this month. I want to do the shots so the hubby and I rushed over after work and did that. Today I go in at 3:30 for an ultrasound and they are going to teach me how to give myself shots. I am a little worried about what I will be paying for the shots, but I am determined this time to do this. We just paid off a credit card and I will use that if need be. I don’t want to turn back now. I am still getting over a sinus infection and feeling a little rough but I am so excited. Updates later.