Day one

Today is day one of AF. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. As dramatic as that may sound that is how I feel. This morning when I saw that AF showed I was apprehensive. I must admit I am a little scared of this new prospect of parent hood. Don’t get me wrong I want a baby, I want to be pregnant, and I want to start our new chapter in life. But I just feel excited and scared. I called and left a message for the day one nurse and I am still waiting for her to call me back to make my appointment for my new blood work. I almost didn’t call and waited until I felt more ready, but there is no better time like the present. I will keep ya’ll posted!

So excited!

Exciting news today! I just so happened to call my insurance at the urging of a friend to check on infertility insurance. I was told back in October that they did not offer any type of infertility insurance anymore. So I was devastated and confused as to what to do. So I have been doing nothing. Well I was attempting to apply for grants that I have found and hoping we would get lucky. The grants are for IVF only. Anyway my insurance now offers diagnosing, treatment, 6 separate IUI attempts, and ovulation induction. WHAT?!!! I called twice to make sure. I am so thrilled right now. So looks like we are going back in for new tests to re-check our levels. We have not been since last March. YEAH!!!

Another side note.

Also I was telling my sister that if and when we have our baby that I was thinking about staying home until they go to school. She said thats a bad idea, that means your husband would have to work a lot more. And why was I getting a degree then? I said I am getting a degree so that I can go to work when my kids are in school. That was annoying to hear from my sister. But like I told her I have no idea what I will want to do when we have a baby. I just dont want to miss anything, especially after how long this has been taking....Oh well.

Well duh!

My sister asked me today if my husband and I were still talking about babies. I said well not really but it never leaves my mind. I am being as patient as I possibly can be. But I want a baby! I want to be pregnant and have a healthy baby. I know some people say to enjoy your life without babies. They say how it is so much easier without babies. But I can’t make myself not want a baby. So I am keeping myself as busy as I can. I continue to write my book and short stories but I always come back to my reality of wanting to be a mom. It never goes away. No matter how busy I am, the desire still burns and I think until I hold our baby it always will.

Funny day

Funny thing happened today. A friend of mine that I work with just had a miscarriage; well that’s not the funny part. She and her husband have one egg left and they want to use this plus some eggs from a donor. So they went to look at prospects and they didn’t feel that great about any of them. So her husband asked if she had any friends that she would consider. And you guessed it, she said they thought about asking me but she didn’t want it to be weird with us being friends. And I said well seeing that I can’t even get pregnant on my own might rule me out. She said oh yeah that’s right. WTF?!!! She obviously thinks she is the only one on this earth who is trying to get pregnant. Like I said I have been trying a lot longer then she has. Anyway odd, odd ,odd…..