I dont want to work!

So the hubby and I have been discussing the fact that we is broke as a joke right now. Now we arent broke in the sense that we need to live under a bridge or anything, but things are a bit tighter then we like. We are paying our bills but like all new parents there isnt much money anymore for fun things. And to me thats ok, but to the hubby it is not ok. He likes to be able to have extra money as all people do. But we have twins people who has money anymore after twins? I mean really. So now we are pushing me in the direction of going back to work. But honestly in my heart I already have my job and its being a mommy and stay at home wifey. And even though its highly stressful some days and I just want to crawl into one of the twins beds and nap with them or run down the block to get away from the screaming, I love my new job. I am still adjusting to mommyhood but I love it. I look at my babies everyday usually when they are sleeping that is when they are most beautiful and peaceful and well just plain out perfect. And I thank God over and over again in my mind. I still cannot believe after three long years for us that God blessed us with these two angels who happen to drive me bonkers some days. Anyway, I turned in my paperwork today for subbing in the district I used to work for and granted I love love love the peeps I used to work with I just love to be home more. Who wouldnt really? So I just keep praying and having such a heavy heart and hoping God will pull through and help us somewhere in our finances and allow me to stay home and keep living this life I love so much. Anywhosers just blabbing my heart out, I always feel better when I do. Thanks for reading and prayers would be great.
Katherine

four months old!

Can you believe it ?! The babies are four months old and we are all still alive! Woo Hoo! We are making it. We have begun trying to get the babies to sleep through the night, and its been hard. We feed them dinner and give them a bottle then we bathe them. Depending on the time we let them play a bit then around 7:30 to 8:00 pm we put them in their cribs. Usually with a bottle, so I have a baby and my hubby has one. So once they fall asleep we take their bottle out. Then we try to go to bed ourselves. We are so tired by that point we just cant wait to sleep anyway. If the babies wake up one of us goes in to check them and give them their paci. If the paci doesnt work we unfortunatly let them cry. And when I say cry I more so mean scream. UGH it breaks my heart and I have to fight back tears myself. If only they would just get the jist of it and know they arent

getting a bottle anymore. Oh well we have only been doing this for a week or so. So thats that, we are doing well. Baby Samantha's neck is much looser than it was before and Samuel is dealing with some sensitive skin. But other than that thank God we are well. Hope everyone is doing well too and thanks for reading!

Three months old!

I cannot believe that the babies are three months old. I honestlty feel like they were just born. They now smile at me and coo back and forth with me. We look right at each other and carry on baby convos! Im in love. We are now trying carrots with rice and they both seem to really like it. Samuel goes to town with his food whereas Samantha isnt all that impressed. But they are sleeping longer. We put them down at 6-6:30 after their bath. They take a bottle and they fall asleep. When they wake up 2-3 hours later we feed them carrots and rice. They then usually sleep 3-4 hours. Success! Needless to say we are really getting to know each other and I am so happy. My most fav time is when my hubby is home and we all get to hang out in bed together. We laugh and smile at the twins and how different they are from just three months ago. God has blessed us and I have to fight back tears of joy when they smile at me or laugh when I tickle their little tummys. God is good!

Its been a long day people!

Twelve hours of being with the babies has come and gone and now I am on my shift. Its three in the morning and I am waiting on Samuel to finish his bottle. Samantha finished hers and began kicking her legs to keep her self awake. So then I had to wrap her legs with a small blanket,shes already in a sleeper sack. She is so stubborn about relaxing and going to sleep! So anyway tomorrow is shot day, not excited. I am going to start updating on here more, I hope.Until tomorrow or at least tomorrow at a decent hour goodnight.

The twins are here!

Hello everyone!
I am so happy to finally be tying this update. The twins are here. They arrived on November 4, 2011 Friday. Samantha was born at 1256 at 6 lbs 13ozs 18 inches long. Samuel was born at 1257 at 6lbs 2 ozs 20 inches long.
I had a c-section and was awake. I was supposed to be put under due to my previous back surgery but the wonderful anesthesiologist was able to give me a spinal block.
I have to be honest the c-section scared me only because when my lower hald became completely numb I felt like I couldn't breath, so I had a little melt down. The whole staff did everything they could to help me relax. Which I finally did. They must have given me something to relax because during the procedure I just wanted to sleep and I was super hot.
Finally my hubby came in and I felt relief. When they began the procedure I felt nothing thank God, but I could smell the burning of skin which was odd. When they pulled Samantha out I let out a cry of "oh I can breathe again". It took a while for the doctor to get her out due to her being breech and tucked under the right side of my ribs. There was a lot of pushing and pulling that I felt. Very weird sensations.
Samantha didn't cry right away which made me nervous. She looked blue, but as soon as I heard her cry in the next room I was relieved. Samuel cried when he was pulled out and I cried too. It's so strange just to hear your own kiddo cry is like music to your ears.
We were in the hospital for three days. Samantha went home with us but Samuel stayed an extra day. Samuel was taken to the NICU the night they were born due to poor feeding and a low body temp. I was so drugged up that when one of the nurses came into our room to tell us about him I hardly remembered it the next day. But he was fine, the only thing we are dealing with now is maybe acid reflux. Whenever he eats he generally spits up a bit and formula comes out of his nose. Not fun! So we are going to see our doctor for him tomorrow to start treatment of whatever that may be.
Sleep is a far off dream now. I truly miss my lazy selfish days, but I couldn't imagine being without these wonderful little beings. I hate to be biased but they are beautiful and I am in love.
We go in for their second hep B shots next week and I am not looking forward to it. When they had their second heal prick I cried right along with them. I just hate them in pain. But I know it has to be done.
My c-section scar is slowly feeling better but the left side is giving me trouble. I go back in for another follow up next Friday for my doc and we are going to discuss birth control.
The first week home was so hard that I am so happy we are well passed it. I did pump for the first week just to give them the nutrients they needed. But I just couldn't get over the hump of pain that I was feeling. With no sleep, pain in my breasts and my c-section scar hurting I gave up the breast feeding. I still feel a little guilty about it but I feel so much better physically that I am ok with it.
We are up every 2-3 hours to feed the babies. Sometimes one doesn't want to go back to sleep and they want to be held. I try to wait and see if they just want to look around but then they start to fuss and so they fall asleep on me or my husband. Samuel is the one who wants to be held a lot but I think it has to do with his tummy troubles. Samantha does want to be cuddled too at times.
My husband took off a month to be with us and I am so sad that it is over now. He goes back to work on Monday and I will be alone for the first time. I am a a bit nervous but I know we will survive. We are still trying to figure out what each baby wants, and we are still trying to figure out how much they want to eat. Sometimes they will eat 2 ozs or 3ozs or 4ozs it is a struggle.
I have now quit my job officially and I am now a stay at home mama. CRAZY! I just cant believe that three years ago we were trying so hard to have just one baby and now look at us?!
Our house stays a mess and I am trying to get back to a normal routine. Hilarious I know but it helps me stay a bit sane. Any way I look forward to reading everyone's post about life with twins now that they are here. I have pics on my facebook, its under Katherine Estrada I have a shutterfly website, you have to join shutterfly but it's free. The website it The2Sams.shutterfly.com.
Love to all,
Katherine

The twins are here!!!

The twins were born 11-04-11 on Friday. Samantha was born at 12:56 at 18 inches long and 6 lbs 13 ozs, Samuel was born one minute later at 20 inches long 6lbs 2ozs. They are more then I could imagine and so beautiful. We are so overjoyed and of course overwhelmed.
I ended up having a spinal block for my c-section, it was a bit scary but I was so happy to be awake to see the babies with my husband. As you all know I am still adjusting to this new life so this is going to be short. There is a pic of our new loves below. Love to all.

35 weeks!

Hello my fellow

mommies,

I know its been a while but I am just so stinking tired. We are now 35 weeks along! Samuel is 5lbs 9oz as of two weeks ago and Samantha is 4 lbs 13 ozs. We go in this Thursday for another ultra-sound, so hopefully Samantha has caught up to her brother. I am so uncomfortable and my belly button hurts that I will be shocked if by the time we do the c-section these babies aren't at least 6lbs or more.

The c-section is November 4th at 1230 pm. I am pretty much nervous and ready at the same time. I told my hubby that we only have three weeks left of "just us". That makes me a bit sad. But we are both ready. We have been together ten years and we still have a life time ahead of us.

The nursery is ready, I am still working on a will which creeps me the hell out to be honest but I know we need one. And this week is the hunt for our pediatrician.

I am pretty much not sleeping at all. I think my bed is too soft because I literally want to cry when I turn over due to the heaviness of my ever expanding belly. And then I just have to get up after that pain to pee. UGH! Last night as I sat on my toilet sorry TMI I was bargaining with God and telling him how finished I am. Like he will take my pleas into consideration, fat chance. So tonight much to my dismay I am going to try and fall asleep on my couch.